Here's to the nights

My mind has been all over the map this week. I have so much on my mind and not enough time or energy to think about it all. And I've never zoned out so much in my life. I seriously feel like my mind and body are not connected in the least, it's very weird, so distracted, and I don't even always know with what.
This week has been the week that started summer amongst the winter weather in my world. My house, my life really, is in that stage of change again. People coming and going in the house, friends finishing up school for the year and moving on and coming to the end of a season of many friendships. I'm also finishing up some course stuff and have grad to experience this weekend, although a stressful week I'm learning again and again about the world and its endless possibilities. Also about the choices I have in life and that I just need to choose, although it might not always be the wisest choice. I jumped, took the risk, and learned something in the process, or will eventually.
God and I aren't fighting as much anymore either- I'm coming to a point where I'm starting to realize with my heart and not just my head that He does love me no matter how much I screw up. Although I need to come to a point where I love me no matter how much I screw up. Sigh. The process of life.
I also want to mention that I'm having a blast living with Reide at the moment and have come to really appreciate stimulating conversation. And the relationship I've been building with Kirstie lately, especially in the last month or so. And the importance of having an honest true relationship with people where you talk about the meaningful deep stuff in life, but can also just laugh and hang out.
"What would life be like without living out the occasional impulse" a quote from Frasier of all things but one that I find to be quite fitting at the moment. Fun, yet hard at the same time. Where is the line? Is there a line? Is it mine or someone else's. The questions, uncertainties and wonder. Well I guess I'll stop with the written thoughts for now.
So today's rant goes out to truly great friends, taking the risk, and finding time to let the stresses of life fly away.And to the world of possibilities.